Confession

I miss planning the wedding.  There, I said (typed) it.  I planned the wedding for a long time...most girls plan their hypothetical wedding for years and there was some of that but I planned our wedding for about a year or so.  So it was a huge part of my life, what I thought about and planned for and worried about and stressed over.  I miss flipping through bridal magazines for inspiration, going to bridal fairs, working out the budget, checking things off my lists, picking flowers, working out details and all of it.  I feel a little lost because I don't have anything to plan for right now.  Besides the wedding, there was the move (which we actually didn't do much planning for, we kind of just winged it) and now that we are to in Mass I feel the need to plan something to fill the void.  Don't get me wrong, I'm glad the wedding is over and although there were a few things that I didn't get done and even fewer things I would do differently if I could do it again, I am happy that we are (finally!) married and on to this next chapter of our lives.

I think things will get better once I am working and there is purpose to my days and I have a schedule and can get in to a routine.  In the meantime, I am trying to stay busy...I've done some meal planning at least and am trying to cook at home.  We still have a trip to UT to plan as well as when/how we are going to get the rest of our stuff out here.  For a minute I thought maybe we should just go ahead and try to have a baby just so I could have something to plan for...I really need a job!

So it's a good thing I had a great interview this week with a family I really like.  We are going to try things out for a couple of days next week to make sure it's a good fit.  I will keep you all posted-hopefully next week I will be employed again and I can stop feeling like such a crazy person.

The Big E

On Saturday, John and I drove out to West Springfield with a college buddy of John's (from here, randomly went to USU) and some of his friends.  The Big E is short for Eastern States Exposition (I think) and is hosted here in MA but put on my all of New England (MA, Rhode Island, Connecticut, Vermont, New Hampshire, and Maine, for those that don't know).

Eating Pizza in Vermont

Bag pipe band, in Vermont

So each state has it's own building and showcases it's best/craziest food and local culture.  Basically we ate our way through the day-it was pretty intense at times!  My version of going to a fair is some eating, some entertainment, and lots of rides.  Well we didn't go on any rides, and it's for the best because it probably would have ended badly after all the crap we ate.  We did see a lot of farm animals and some prize pumpkins and a lot of horses...but mostly we wandered around the buildings and ate a lot.

The menu:

Corn on the cob on a stick from New Hampshire
Kettle Corn, also from NH (sample)
chocolate covered bacon from Connecticut
maple bacon flavored ice cream, from CT (sample)
Dell's frozen lemonade from RI (best thing I had all day)
American Flatbread pizza from Vermont
Lobster roll from Maine
raspberries from Mass

That was just the state buildings...outside we also sampled fried dough, deep fried oreos, a doughnut cheeseburger (instead of a bun, it was a krispy cream doughnut) and fried butter (notice a trend here?).  The fried butter is actually butter rolled in dough and then friend, so the butter just melts and it's basically a scone with too much butter.

John and some moose 

State trooper car for Mass

watching some local 4H girls on their horses

Fried butter

mmm, tasty

crazy is right

it was not good.

but what a fun experience! ha ha

baby llama

giant pumpkin

even bigger pumpkin

Anyway, we were all feeling a little gross at the end of the day but it was still a good time.  It was fun to meet some new people and they were all really fun and have invited us on a couple of weekend getaways the next 2 weeks so hopefully we'll be getting out a little more.

at the end of our adventure

yeah, it's a pork palace

Wedding Pictures

 I got our wedding photos back last week and I like them, for the most part.  The family/group photos are not what I really wanted (you can hardly see the kids because of the plants) and we didn't get much of a variety of John and I, but overall they are pretty good and she was able to get a few shots that others didn't, so that's good.  John hates having his photo taken anyway, so I should feel lucky we got the ones we did.  Anyway, I'm sharing a few of my favorites here and if you want to see the whole album go here.  Sorry for the long "list" of photos...somebody should teach me how to make my blog photos cute and organized.

the dress!

getting ready

cute baby Jane, waiting for the ceremony to start

ready to go!

processional, groomsmen and bridesmaids

everyone waiting for me :-)

walking down the aisle with my dad!

John's excited face

Our ceremony was wonderful-short and sweet and just our style

love this action shot-can you tell we are skipping?

the kids thought it was so funny that we skipped and they did too

great shot of my bouquet

with Judge Renstrom

The whole wedding party

My family

John's family

ha ha best shot we could get with the kids

Mr. and Mrs. 

With Bob and Luane, John's parents

With my parents 

John and his groomsmen

Me and my bridesmaids

with Jr. Bridesmaids Maddie and Amy

Flower girls-Leah, Izzy, and Jeni

John and his siblings-Carolyn, Keri, Mike, and Steve

with my siblings, Rebekah, Rachel, Kayla and Matt

my beautiful sisters :-)

with John's Grandpa Cutler

John and his best man, Braydon

with my Matron of Honor, Bekah

John and our ring bearer, Nathan

my sorority sisters and best friends

our awesome cake

our cute centerpieces

the food tasted as good as it looked

with Beth and Anna

KD sisters singing the "White Rose"

Delta Sigs singing me the Dream Girl song

the truck was pretty gross

they worked hard

tired but happy

The End :-)